just one photo first :)

thats Robert the Robot, whom i have recieved as one of my christmas gift 

its lovely :D and rather photogenic to say the least. this is what everybody will do. let's say 2007 reflections and 2008 resoultions.

so let me start :D

2007

*school-year 2 baby year 2, first half of the semester I was just clowning around, glad to even complete my assignments on time, felt it was okay to just brush everything at the last minute. Bad work bad results. harsh reality check from Jing. second half, started earlier. Friends who kept me in sync. Who shared a good half of my time with :). Cup noodles, and mac delivery. Late nights and stay overs. saying life sucks all the time :). results came I am happy this time round. 2008 start working even earlier :D.

Jollilads aresnal F.C

what can i say :) :) :) :), football is something that keeps me going, Mak the coach that creates wonders, how we love her. ALOT i might add :D. the rain and mud and walking to the toilet, to sinful dinners and going home together. To 5 people sharing a can of 100 plus. To cutting our conditioning time by cutting corners :P

meeting so many new faces, knowing those whom i knew better, falling in love. confessions, rejections but no heartbreaks :). 

the shin guards, the knee pads, the gloves,the mud, everything. Meeting wonderful people, very wonderful i might add. i just want more football i can never get enough of it :)

to friends, 

zel- One person who I will love unconditionally. been through many Ups and Downs. Quarrels, fights. Sacarsm over text, but never words. Ignoring her before our final football game. Telling her everything i feel,Listening to her. korean food at meridian. Hearing her gush over her gf over the phone. Not spending as much time with her as usual, knowing she is happy :). Buying her Oreo cheesecake. making foam monsters and painting. and giving her artwork i want t throw away :P. To wanting the best for her always.

pogo-what can i say... what can i say... no words can describe really. A wonder, and glad to see geraldine because of you again haha. guitar picks, pink badges, custom mittens To clubbing and cabs home, to robots and lomos. Trees and skies. Pogo and canvas. Gin and tonic. Cold floor and soft ikea pillow :D. Topman sprees and chipped sunglasses. known you for not say a long time say 5 -6 months or so? but there are so many more years to come :). with much much more turkey every single year.you is too special :D. I will love you as a friend in time to come, promise. I do I do , Ning's got your back all the time (:

Family

mom- your barely around 

dad- Goodnight see you tommorow hahahahha , and magical 60million year old snail. knowing you care but, not showing it hee hee

shoe- i miss you laaaaa :( alot. come home soon, its such a bore staying at home, no random let's go have nice dinner. and you bringing me out. No barbiekews and steamboats. No mutton soup and beef stew :( :( :( :(. and its New year's tommorow, mom in indonesia dad, hahah dont know where he will be. To all the money you have spent on me. All the food you have saved for me. To asking me how i feel, to waiting for me to be ready when I came out. accepting who I am. Saying its okay to like girls haha. Gingerbread and pork cracklings. and 300 dollars worth of topman and burtons sprees :). see you soooon, love you tooo much.

enough for one day. PART DEUX tommorow 

been delivering krispy kremes and christmas gifts to the babies

the whole morning,

nets baby , butt , ning,cami,cherine

im beat, and full cause i couldnt resist eating a doughnut haha

well i lugged the blooody doughnts all the way back, you is better like them :D

photos will be up soon promise.

:) all it takes to make you happy, all it takes 

wifi in hongkong

be home in approx. 5 hours

with krispy kremes in hand! :D

FENGSSS is sees yous laters :)

i want go home now now now

instead of sitting on the floor outside gate 61 waiting to board

christ spare meeeee the miseryyy

i want to go back to singapore like NOWWWWW ( whines)

shit im getting fat again 

NOOOOoooOOooooOOOoooOOOoooooOO! :(

one final post from terminal 1

and with robert the robot at hand, i am going to have  a fun time in HK

can't believe i am spending kissmass away from home this year

but it will be over soon.

ill try my bestest best to get internet access in HK :D

well everyone take care now :)

looking forward to coming back to eventually meet you (:

sigh yes im moving on I AM I AM :( trying my best

i am i promise :(

jouk last night
whoever the dj spinning , ought to die
damnpen the whole bloody atmosphere
but after that , it was greatttt :D hard for me to say
its better then mos ( well the later part)
hongkong tommorowss till the 29
will miss christmas, can't join the rest for one night stand
on the 26th :( , but at least i got to party before the year ended :D

part deux- thanks yous manys manys babysss for zee blooo korour robots (:
its lovely. yes I make sure it tours hongkong with me.

yes i still so love you, but slowly and surely i'll learn to let go (:

see the glee and the super high faces. see the gin which i broke
see the mortar where my black pepper was
the night was crazy, and too much fun.
a christmas well spent, some did get drunk some did get drained
but with friends like them, its all safe
a night like this is certainly one to remember. good food , company and so much more
thank you everybodies for coming,
nets for offering me her service of her ikea bag, and volunteering to go grocery shopping with me even though there last minute you had to work
from work like gough, eunice and judith (:
fengs who wasnt well but still came
zib who dressed up ! haha
tammy and ed, for the lychee mixer and bringing the drum stick home
zel and ning for lovely gingy bread cookies!
cousins aunt uncles dad mom.
i did not wake up did all my grocery shopping lug a 9.5kg for nothing
christmas dinner my present to good people i mentioned.
much love , much G on G happened
and we are now officially lebanese remember that :D haha
a christmas party way better than i imagined. 2008 here we come, cant wait to get over hk and be back home. i want to partay more before the year closes :D

oh thanks baby for the mittens.
yes those are ning's MINE MINE MINE :D
no one else in the house are allowed to put a paw on the (:

:)
2 movees tonight not bad not bad
with my turkey defrosting gleefully in the sink
and a good dinner with the mates tommorow
i'm happy i know i am
:D

roodolph the one line drawing reindeer :D

GET OUT OF THE SHOWER GF

IT'S MY TURN

why do i keep thinking about food

not wanting to eat them

but wanting to cook them 

i went to sleep late yet again

had 2 dreams,rather entertaining ones

much more entertaining than my life.

let me try to make it 3 

well its only 1.46pm i can sleep more

let's see for turkey dinner this year, what shall i be cooking
1-turkey roast( with cranberry sauce, gravy)
2-roasted vegetables( carrots,celery,bell peppers)
3-roasted new potatoes
4-blanched broccollieeee and corn
5-lasagne ? pasta?? rigatonni??? tortelliniii???( get back on that)
6- dips and starters

( alchohol bring your own ar, i only got vodka( everyone HAS vodka)
thursday people dont forgets aight :)

its 230. AND frankly i just woke up

but the rain is beating down on my window 

ahhhhhhh.................

hypnotizing me to sleep again

okay sleep i shalll

zzzz............

16 people

16 people

we turned up at herstory with 16 people

what an army (:

and saw "new friend" 

made other new friends

got hit in the jaw, 

and fell down

but ok la fun fun

the event sucked though

but partaying was good 

i am so fullllllll

and nets my wine is friendlier than yours

at least mine didn't give off the I DARE YOU TO DRINK ME vibes

had portebello mushroom roasted with garlic ,salt,oliveoil,black pepper,and baby mozzarella

and roasted veg, comprising of carrots celery roasted red bell pepper and corn

and of course a fat ass-whopping ribeye grilled pink (:

good meal in good weather ahhhh satisfaction yaw

and herstory tommorow

hopefully no body backs out last minute-ly (:

ciao people need to digest.

hello quicky quick one

before mac dies on me

i met isma like at broody broody long lasty. and yes i ate too much again

need more sleep need more money

cant wait for herstory, with ginny 

and everyone's going, so is my "new friend"

woo steak and potatoes with the nets tomoorow

ok shall watch some teevee now, and i think my burn mark is cool :D

ive got a 3 cm burn on my right arm

while frying my egg fried rice

but the best thing was i didn't even flinch when my arm touched the wok

i think i am secretly a HERO

uh oh its starting to swell and bubble-lizeee haha

hur fun huh, too too way too immuned to burns 

its 1.03pm, just woke up

but i am not going to eat till dinner

due to the overwhelming amount of food i have eaten

and the calorie count must be WOOOHOOOOOOO

i shouldn't go there, maybe some grapes and a bowl of soup for lunch

and beehoon goreng with gf at jalan kayu tonight :D

and i bet i'll just get lazy and refuse to go home and crash at her humble abode

okay now i shall go find soup to drink.

baby life was good to me

but you just made it better

i don't want to run away

just want to make your day

when you feel the world is on your shoulders

don't want to make it worse

just want to make us work

let's dream big people

i agree i may be sore, that after all is done, 

nothing's left unchanged, I have school, and friends

( even though butt is way in love, and always so beezee)

I still have other people around me, that i can care for and love

so i say i should stop harping so much on one matter.

i still have 7 years left before i realise my dream of my own cafe

its there, just waiting for me to make it come true.

It's something i want so bad, whenever i cook a good pasta, or when my chicken comes out

perfectly roasted, and the pan seared salmon is perfectly cooked still pink inside

i want to make it big, as a chef, as a designer, as a business woman.

I want to cook the perfect dish

mix the perfect drink,

i can almost see myself welcoming my customers.

7 more years people , with the drafts and books i buy for reference.

and diner deco, i look at, speaking to anne constantly and just  sitting at happy daze and seeing how its being run.

I even think of how to plate a dish before i go to bed

and new recipes i can come up with. Yes some people says i am dreaming,

but this is one dream I will make come true. 

i want this as bad as i want you( okay thats not the point)

but bottomline is watch out in 7 years. 7 short years

AND SHU YOU ARE GOING TO HELP ME 

if you can watch the show do

i sat through this,

and i glad i did on a rainy

monday afternoon 

whatever it is i'll love you still

still plenty much alot (:

oh i say hair much MUCH wilder :D

yesss there was chix rice
and i had san wen yu with broccoli

i wish there will be lunch
i wish there will be lunch
cause i am really hungry
and too lazy to cook as per normal
i wish there will be lunch
okay i'll go check now :D wait for the newwwsssss .....

hello you are supposed to send me the peekchures!!!! and you said hi and went offline :(!!!!!
so ill steal one first. so much for lets go on a diet :(
with ramen and mudpie and frenchfries.
tsk tsk gf ar gf i am really going to grow fat with you again !!
but you have to agree the deep fried tofu were the bomb :D
hurry upo and come back from camp! i want more coffee and bagles and random black pepper hot dog and galloping to punggol station with you sooners! (: haha

hur i was happier then (:

i guess its time i run far far away

sorry training cancelled-mak

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

i was so pumped 

looking forward to play 

fold my goalkeeping jersey

strap on my gloves cleaned my shin pads

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i want to play football

in about 5 hours i can

:)

it's harder then i thought

especially there's nothing to keep you occupied

you just fill every single nook and cranny of my cranium

what can i do to make you mine 

even though i know its not possible.

i have to stop this tirade 

its not doing me any good

i am just in daze most of the time

and im supposed to be happy damn it

get over it get over it get over it

but how you tell me?

anyone who has a clue tell me how to get over it

swear you have no idea

i cried over you

fuck i got to get over it

i'm not smart 

i'm not great

i'm not good looking

but i am willing to do everything for you

every single damn thing.

second one second one second one

second person  i have cried for

and zel wasn't even counted as the first

slaps self***

what the hell am i doing 

but somehow you were worth it

and yes my heart's crippled by the vein i keep on closing

you cut me open

and i keep bleeding 

keep keep bleeding love

i shouldn't go out with the girlfriend often

swear i am going to get so fat,

and please i so hope i dont fall sick 

* keeep your sickly germy away from me :D

get well soon gf hokay hokay?

and we should stop overeating ! 

                        LETS BREAK THE NIGHT WITH COLOR

in a very drunken state last night

i said while lying on my back

- tommorow will be a very hot day

and it rained the whole of today 

schweeeet :D

pool party was a blast
had the food the alchohol the people
apart from me not knowing what happened to my food and containers
because i was way too drunk or high to actually noticed what was going on
lets break down what we had for fun :D

food
*cajun chicken
*salmon starters
*pasta
*zelzz tanghoon
*potato salad
*cakes

alchohol
*jacky
*ginny
*2 bottles of vodky
*rummy
*tequillay
*winey
*tammy's wonder mixer

and much more, tripping over pool benches and falling off playground equipment has never been so fun hur,and before i knew it i had someone's tongue in my mouth.

urghh headache its raining and i want to sleep more

a run that made my legs give all they've got
and a morning's grocery shopping for today's party
makes everything much better.

bleeding love-leona lewis
i have no idea why its been on repeat for the past 12 hours
screw emo songs they are making me feel so down
fuck but i cannot stop listening to it
maybe because its good or its just too sadly true
JING WHY ARENT YOU NOT ONLINEEEEEEEE( crappppp)
kind of overwhelming actually never in my life have i felt like that, its like learning how to walk
and falling flat on your face
but zel says its alright move on, pick yourself up
ill do that , but now i just want to lie down and stare at the ceiling trying to take everything in
bleeding love plays in background******
she was something
really something
it was like hitting me right between my eyes
i fought with my best friend
convinced myself its alright
so special i say so special,
but as they say somethings are just not yours to keep
its alright i say its alright, all i need
is one night, and something big to eventually get over it
i know how to take care of myself i do know how
take it in ning take it ning.
but i know i'll still smile when i see you
that i can assure myself.
whats there to be unhappy.
whats there to be angsty
maybe somehow someway sometime anytime

i should really stop listening to it
fuck i cant help it. i cant bring myself to switch i tunes off.
or should i just promise myself to accept the next person who comes along
yea i should huh butt I should.

after much waiting and of course much training, I finally completed the halvey marathon slightly below 3 hours, with cynthia.

I swear it is so much fun seeing everybody running togetherrs

and cynthia is such a good person to run with, always acting as my human walking stick haha

but we did alright, running non stop for 2 hours and 20 minutes, before giving a final sprint at the last 100m :D!. well 21.1 km was certainly crazy, my toes are turning purple, and my feet are as sore as hell. need slp alot of slp. a good marathon runned :). strikes of one more ****

:(

its 11 48

i ought to be in bed

got the run tommorow 

BUTA BUTA i got to meet cyn at 430 

430=wake up at 330

HOW TO SLEEP I ASK YOU HOW TO SLEEP???

if i sleep= confirm cannot wake up

confirm cannot wake up=miss the run

miss the run= gets angry with self

OH NO THE last person i want to get angry with is myself

ok i can do it ( please orange magical mizunos treat me right tommorow)

its here its here its here its here its here its here its here

baby its here its here its here its here :)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello other then the super tiring run this morning at 2 am everything else was mucha funa

and say hello to photoboof fun.

run run tommorow, can diee