maybe its because i have never approached the matter

or I just find it easy to write it off just by ignoring it

It's been long 

and i don't see it coming to an end anytime soon either

maybe im just convincing myself its alright

or perhaps

not trying hard enough

its not even a maybe

i know im not even putting in an effort

and the only person im blaming is myself

and asking why in the world don't you want to just move out of this situation

truth is 

there's a part of me not willing to just walk away

for some reason or another

I hate it when i assume everything is alright

and everybody thinks im just doing perfectly fine

thing is with so many people breaking down beside me

I know i cannot

okay whatever

Im still not heading anywhere 

sometimes i wish 

you could tell me to leave

cruel as it is , it might just help

if that really happens i can already forsee me being a big mess

and the best thing of all 

i have never ever told you how i feel