i used

still

but 

im 

trying

to

ignore

what

the 

muscle 

in 

the 

left

side

of 

the

chest

say

i

cant

forget

even

though

i

am

trying

very

hard

really

till

one

day

perhaps

i

dont

know

really

tiring

to

fight

against

myself

just

like

a

salmon

swimming

up

stream

i

hope

this

dies

I

am

really

going

no

where